Vanilla jello and Shakira

So, I was thinking about the amount of diversity there is today. I'm pretty sure that will help world peace, and coexistence, and tolerance. I'm pretty happy about that. I mean, don't get me wrong, I see the Wal-mart, bed bath and beyond Barnes and noble shopping plaza's popping up everywhere, thinking that conformity is finally coming. Resistance is futile, give in to the man, all anyone cares about is the bottom line. But, I guess with the facebooks, you can get a real flavor, yogis, crunchy, consumers, gamers, malls rate, family folks, hunters, non profiters, tattoos, rappers dressing goth, ever increasing number of competing religions , that might just mean it might be almost impossible for any one of them to dominate the rest. I was really afraid in high school when I discovered conformity, that we were all going to turn into vanilla jello. I even wrote a poem about it. It won that year's college poem writing contest. I don't even have a copy of it. :( oh well. I know it started "Die, or be". Morbid, I know. So, is the next new flavor be a big mix of all the other flavors. Also, sort of related, I was surfing the next, listening to samples of Shakir's She wolf album, and thought MAN she's gotten skinny. What's happening to her? Is she conforming? I love Shakira, but where did she go? She has no hips left to lie about anything. I'm just a little worried about her. I hope she hasn't fell for that I have to be a size -2 or something. Don't conform girl!

Tori Amos

So, I've been away for a while. Major life changes since I last wrote. Still in the long long process of picking myself back up and brushing myself off, and I keep falling, but that's ok. It's all part of the process.
On that note, (pun intended - keep reading, you'll see), I have to say that lately I've been obsessed with Tori Amos again. I love music, it moves me, it changes my mood, it brings me great great happiness. I have like 9000 songs in my itunes (which I don't recommend - bogs down too much), and if you ever ask me who's my fave - it's Tori. What I think is really cool is her music has so many layers, and so applicable over my life, that depending on what's going on in my life, I get different meanings to her songs. So, right now I'm listening to Boys For Pele as I think I'm still struggling with being co-dependent, particularly on the moods of the men in my life, particularly because I can't seem to do everything right, or hurt their feelings, or dis-appoint them. And Honestly, I'm tired of being dependant on anyone. Actually it's not just men, it's all close friends or family. I want to stand alone, like the cheese. So, redirecting myself here, I need to work on myself, hence the blog, and not be worried if anyone is disappointed in me for any reason, usually based on me not giving them enough attention. Next right thing.
Love and hugs,
Joyel